First I thought I'd like to let your apology stand as they as it is, but I must say I appreciate that you wrote those words. It's not easy to realize AND admit mistakes, even less easy in public. So I appreciate this attempt and I am sure others do, too.
Now, Dune gave you some great advice in the other thread, I suggest to take it to heart. Please become a contributing member of this community, but not only with critics, rather with images, knowledge and sharing.
Regards,
Frank