I just need to rant... this is a more quiet place than reddit or something...
My teeth have finally gotten to the point I can't eat anymore. Rotted away roots from abscesses on both sides from years without insurance. Now that I have it, the only place that accepts my insurance is a joke. Guy is like 10 years younger than I am it seems, really rude cause my societal class, and they put your vitals, x-rays, and everything else right in your face on two giant 64 inch TVs instead of behind you like every dentist, hospital, and clinic ever.
First time I tried them, they gave my laughing gas, which apparently I am one of the ones that had a very rare reaction that induces extreme rage instead of, well, laughter. So I panicked, got mad, and was literally internally holding in not trying to hit the dentist yanking things out of my infected mouth. I knew it was wrong but had this incredibly overwhelming rage and instinct. It's hard to explain.
Second time they wanted to use anesthesia, despite the fact I have heart problems, constant angina and pains, which kept me in a panic all the way up until my fiancee cancelled the appointment.
Now I got simultaneous infections that popped up in less than an hour from instant oatmeal (I guess sugar and dusty powder getting in things).
I feel helpless, so hungry, and just... I don't know. I have been trying to occupy myself with ideas or things I have thought about doing but never had yet but it's getting hard to focus on things now.
If I disappear, I am sorry I won't be here to help and talk with you all. I probably had complications.
